Prayer
for a steady mind
Not one flitting about unwilling to alight
Prayer
for a brave heart
To face the face of loneliness
(The cave I do not wish to enter)
And to know I do not need a shining prince to save me;
One rightful King has already named me and called me out.
Seen and known by him;
Every hair counted
Every tear traced
Every wind stilled
Under his wings of faith
In my hiding He is seeking
In my screaming He is soothing.
All these doubts assaulted my well of being
I want to escape the pain and the not knowing
Hollow and silent
A grip of panic seizes me
Reject it with a deep breath,
Willing me
To just be.
Just being with him
A Being, loved
Until I experience
Being The beloved.
Apple of my fathers eye
No goal but to become
In his presence
Who he says I already am
To rest in his naming
As the child that I am
To be still
And complete
Centered in his heart
Knowing intimately his gaze
Compassionate understanding, patient pursuing
This is my undoing.
